It's too late to write coherently

I have no friends.

Okay wait, let me back up a moment here, I do have friends, they all happen to live in another state. Along with the majority of my family.

Since moving to Seattle I've tried to take a trip home once a month, sometimes twice if the money allows. But right now the money doesn't allow and won't for another 4 months.

I AM HOMESICK.

Yes I realize that I sound like I am whining, that's the point. I am whining about missing my friends and family because it helps. It helps to say yes I miss the place I spent where I spent the first 22 years of life, I miss my mom and dad, I miss my friends. I miss familiarity.

My mom sent me an email in response to my feeling homesick that it takes at least 3 years for someone in a new place to make lasting friendships. Fortunately I am lucky to be in a serious relationship with a wonderful man, which has helped ease the loneliness.

I was reading a blog that belongs to a friend and his wife, who I both went to high school with in Idaho and it was fun taking a peek into married life. Deciding on houses and kitchens and taking about kids. It made me think about the kind things that I want out of the next 10 years.

Maybe I'm homesick to start my own family? And that's possibly the real issue?

I am currently too tired to debate that.